I hit the big 5

My recent weight gain is horrendous. It's seriously getting to me. Momsie keeps calling me fat. I feel like crying when i got onto the scales. I feel like killing myself when i look into the mirror. And everytime after i eat, the guilt totally consumes me.

I need and i want to lose those fats but i really don’t wanna go back to that starve-myself-and-run-like-mad days. It's fxcking miserable to run on an empty stomach.