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恶梦 Part 1

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

晚作了一场梦。醒来时 - 眼角还含着泪水,而身边的枕头也都湿透了。在梦里,我看见一对男女的感情坠入了危机。他渴望自由,而她,要的只不过是陪伴。也因这所谓的自由,纠缠,与陪伴,两人三天一小吵,五天一大吵。渐渐地,那女孩学会了如何‘放手’。

她从此不再缠着他。唯有他需要她的时候,他们才会联络,见面。

虽然两人仍还是一对,但她很不开心。而他,却很享受现在所佣有的自由。他能无忧无虑的和朋友出门,玩电动。更让他雀跃的是,女友也再不缠着他了。

有一天,那女孩的爸爸决定让她出国留学,为期五年。仅管她心里有一万个不愿意,那女孩对爸爸的决定一点反抗也没有。她也没有把这消息告诉任何人,包括她的男友。

直到出国的那一天,男友无意中从那女孩的姐姐口中知道了这件事。当他赶到机场时,看见眼前的女友手中紧握着两人的合照,眼角还泛着泪光。他这才发现自己的女友是如此的孤独。他早已忽略了女友的存在。他上前叫住了她。

这时,机场传来登机的最后通知。他扑向那女孩,两人紧紧地抱着。在松手前的那一杀,那女孩轻轻地在他耳边说‘你自由了’。接着,掉头就走。那男孩努力地叫着她,但她头回也不回一下。

她这一去,就去了五年。两人也从此没有再联络。

可惜,真可惜。两人原本能拥有一个属于他们自己幸福快乐的家,但尽然会是为了年少时所追求自由与陪伴而从此分开。这一切的一切,让我感到非常地害怕,恐慌。这也未免和我现在的状况太贴切了吧!他渴望自由,而我渴望陪伴。

我深怕我们有一天会像我所梦见的一样。但如果真有这一天,我知道我并不会把矛头指向他,而只能惋惜。惋惜为何当初没有好好把握能和对方在一起的每一个机会。惋惜为何当初会如此的放弃自己,放弃对方。

Sincere aplogies to my non-chinese readers. I don't know why i've got the sudden urge to blog in chinese. The massive word vomit above is just a narration of the dream i dreamt of last night. It's about a couple, of which the boyfriend desires for freedom, while all the girl asked for, is his company.

And to the boyf who is reading this, i'm not being emo or whatnots. Neither am i complaining bout our relationship on my blog. All i needed, is just a channel for me portray my thoughts in words. All the breakups around me are driving me nuts. And what's worst, is to have a friend who could not stop walloping herself in self pity.

There's seriously too many breakups around me these days. Too many to be true. Too many for me to believe in what i've always believed in. Love never lasts, and what's worth enjoying in a relationship is the process. Like what people always say, 不在乎天长地久,只在乎曾经拥有.

Anyways, i have a pair of grey Mondo heels for sale. It's too tiny for mu huge feet thus letting it go. Brand new - never worn before at all !! Kitten heeled. Size 36. Bought at near $30. Letting go at $25 with meetup only !!



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